Maybe it’s just that the holidays leave me feeling extra romantic and hopeful about the upcoming year. They make me feel full and ready to accept the things ahead, although at this particular moment I have no idea what that could possibly mean. As some of you probably know, I’m actually not in the U.S. but in Wales right now. It’s a country in the UK bordered by England and sometimes mentioned in the same breath as coarseness, welshcakes or the filming location for much of Doctor Who and Torchwood. Though that’s neither here nor there.
I’m legally bound to not discuss the end of my workplace of almost 3 years, but I will say that my return to D.C. in a few days is a bit of a scary one. It’s thrilling and terrifying to not know where you may end up or where you may go or where you may work next; this also means you don’t yet know of all the people you may meet or the things you may learn or the pictures you may take or the adventures you may have. I wonder vaguely if I might do well to just pick up and move to a foreign country, or at least another state, to try and see what life is like somewhere I’ve never even been. I wonder if I’d be ready to leave DC, and the answer to that is, I guess, no—not yet, not if I can help it. Though adventure has been known to knock unexpectedly…
This and ye olde end-of-the-year/new year resolutions leave me thinking about what I want going forward. There were a lot of low points in 2011. Too many to count. 2010 had quite a few rough patches too. But I’m working on eliminating the stresses or people who weigh things down too much/are generally negative influences on my own happiness—I am young but not for long and I have so much I want to accomplish.
And as I mentioned before, the holidays give me a lot of hope.
So I wonder what life will bring me in the upcoming year. I won’t be cheesy and say my resolution is to update this tumblr more often. I do feel a need to, though it can get daunting and I would hardly say it’s #1. But I have been hoping to use this as more of a photography blog than anything else, so I CAN say I hope to move in that direction/update on a weekly basis with new favorite shots and tips and tricks. But more to the point…
Here is a list of things I would like to keep in mind for 2012. Ready?
Take more time for personal photography projects. It’s probably on every photographer’s Top 10 list but personal projects are necessary. However, they’re incredibly difficult to find the time to do. (Perfect example: I brought my instax+film all the way out here to the UK and haven’t used it yet, though I would really like for that format to be used in a photo project in the near future.) This is what I mean. Don’t just talk, do. Which leads me to my next point.
Don’t get lazy. I’m thrilled to say that I’m working steadily against that even on this holiday visit. I’ve been taking video of this trip and can’t wait to edit it all together for my friends and family who couldn’t be here with the friends and family that are. Luckily, doing little things like this can safeguard against laziness and (hopefully) stagnation.
Do the things you want to do, for you. This sounds hokey. I know. But I’ve lived a lot of my life worrying about what specific people/family/etc. might think or how they might perceive artistic goals, hobbies, accomplishments (“Oh, you’re a theatre major? Oh great, now you’re an english major?”) when really, in most scenarios, the decisions you make are the ones you make for your own life. So, y’know, get on that shit and do what makes you happiest.
Try to grow from experience, but don’t let it walk all over you. Things happen to all of us. In the next year, I am trying to grow from some of the lamer cards I’ve been dealt in the last year or two and move past them. Devoting too much of your time to crappy situations will only hurt you the most. If there are factors causing a lot of unhappiness or grief that you can’t escape, then it might be time to move in a different direction from all of that too; keep evaluating but try to trust your instincts; stay happy and healthy; eliminate the bad because no one needs it. And remember, someone has it worse than you. In fact, most people probably do.
E A T B E T T E R .
Figure out what makes you tick. I am happy and lucky to have a bit of time to figure out the things I need and want out of life. Trying to understand yourself better can only lead to enlightenment (or sheer terror if you’re a serial killer) and how can you reach the most relaxed and fulfilled point of your life without knowledge of who you are, where you have been and and how you got there? (Thanks, Siddhartha. I owe you a cold one.) In all honestly, I think the world needs a better understanding of itself. I think it can happen individually and I’d like to take some steps toward that for myself.
Stay in love. I said it at the beginning of the post. I love you (and hey, thanks for reading). It’s important to be so full of joy and promise you might explode. It sounds cliched and trite and so The Notebook it’s sickening, though it’s honestly important. Notice little things about your surroundings. Take the time to take it all in. Look for reasons to be in love with a person or a place or a song or a picture or a play or a bike ride. There is nothing better in the world than love. There are a great many things that can come close, but nothing is ever its equal so embrace it and look for it and be happy just to be wherever you are reading this post right this very minute.
That’s about all, folks. I look forward to sharing my video of my UK trip with all of you (working title: There Will Be Bokeh), as well as my adventures next year…. keep your fingers crossed for me and good luck in all of your resolutions. Thanks for reading.
Hey, kids! I’m going to be better about updating my recent work on here because well galldurnit, that’s why I started this thing. Here’s a link to some recent shots I got for Brightest Young Things over the weekend. The show was at The Fillmore in Silver Spring, MD and let me tell you—as far as lighting design goes at venues in the tri-state area, Fillmore has some of the best, most consistently great designers/operators, which makes shooting a BREEZE. They’ve also always got a photo pit, which a lot of local venues don’t do….. and I really, really wish they would. (Take a page from Fillmore, guys. At least consider it.)
If you consistently shoot anywhere in the area, be sure to check them out…. and of course if you can see Cheap Trick, don’t pass that up either.